Freedom!!!

On the 15th of October I have officially finished my last exam paper, Chemistry!!! What a release!!! Sweet taste of freedom that is. So I haven't blogged in a while, I use to do it like, all the time. But these days, even if I do surf the internet, I would either:-

(i) Download lots & lots of new music (I barely listen to the radio).

(ii) Stalk on my crush on his friendster (ngahahahaha, ppl don't change)

(iii) Open youtube.com

(iv) Download new clothes, new hair for my sims

I just literally gave up on my blogspot life, but when I saw that questionnaire at Faruq's blog, it just triggered the blogger in me to continue blogging. Haha!

To start of, a few days ago something happened to my Isabelle (my macbook). The power button of my macbook kind of get tilted inwards, so, when I push the button, I don't get the feel that its clicking downwards. Plus, its like, my mac has a trouble deciphering whether I want to turn it on or not, so like, it will turn on if I push the button hard enough or if I push it twice (the second time harder). And like, not only is it bothering me, but it is also frustrating me. So I'm going to get it fix, by tomorrow hopefully at the Apple Store in MidValley. I just need my dad to give me a lift, and bring me the warranty.

I planned to go today, to Low Yat where I bought my laptop, but I'm worried about two things:-

(i) if I go straight from UIA, I don't have the macbook's warranty with me, so if I do ask them to fix it and they'll charge, what a waste when I actually do have a warranty.

(ii) and secondly, UIA has this strict policy that you can only go outing on fridays, saturdays & sundays, and its a complete B. S. There's 2days til' I leave the campus, give me a fuckin' break! 

Like if I want to go outing on non-regular outing hours, I have to write a friggin letter to the principal of my mahallah (hostel). Get her approval. Like when I want to go to my uncle's open house, he lives in Damansara, so my parents thought they could just pick me up and I can tag along. So I asked for the permission of the mahallah, they told me to write a friggin letter (in English of course) asking for the principal's permission. I had to change the title from “Permission To Go Out To My Uncle's Open House” to “Permission To Go Out To My Uncle's TAHLIL”, it seems more appropriate I guess. So I did, I put pen to paper. But nnnooo... I have to get the principal's permission, okie doks. But nnnooo again, she doesn't believe me. She wants to talk to my mum, turns out my mum is unreachable. So I called my dad, she talked to my dad, finally I got the approval. 

*sigh*

And that's completely B.S., because my cousin Iqa (who is studying in UM) gets to go out whenever she f**king wants to.

Okay2x, on a much much brighter note. The nastiest thing happened yesterday. After finishing my Chemistry paper, the only relevant thing for me to do was reaching for my macbook and play The Sims 2 University. So while my friend & I take turns playing, I thought I sms my cousin, Fatin, to ask her what do she usually order for Domino's Pizza delivery. But with a slip of finger, I sent it to a different number. And unknown number to be more exact. My friend, Athirah, use my phone the other day. So typical of a Sony Ericsson phone, they will save the recent number used when you sms right, I guess I accidentally clicked on this unknown number.

It was Athirah's friend, a guy. So after apologizing, the whole “accidentally smsing someone” triggered something in me. “Wouldn't it be funny if I accidentally sms'ed my crush? *who's like a f**king saint in and around the campus.* Long story short, I decided what the heck, its the end of the semester. This guy, lets just refer to him as MC, is taking engineering too. In UIA, typically for engineering students you have to  do your foundation for 2 years. But if you're smart... One and a half year! Appareantly not only is he the man of my dreams in more ways then one, but he is also like, smart! And tragically, that means he is doing his foundation for a year and a half. (and like that sucks and all, that why I kinda wish that he would repeat some paper or something. Haha!!!)

So like, here I am trying to find the perfect line to sms him. Cam x sengaja lah gitu. So the only relevant thing I can think of was, “Iqa, ko tahu tak no. fon Domino's Delivery Pizza?” Cam x sengajalah gitu, hehe! It was like when I sms'ed Aidil from Couple, I just thought I got nothing to lose, if he didn't sms me back then fine. Fine!

But he did, he actually did! I was so stoked. When my phone rang, “You got a tiny text message, a very tiny one, please read it.” Me and my roommate was in awe, I was so excited sampai tergolek-golek atas lantai. Like literally. I quickly grabbed my phone and read the message and he sent back, “Aduhai... Salah nombor lah.” I squealed in a 100 decibel tone. I actually talked to him, in like, an indirect sengaja kind of way. 

The big question arise, should I reply back. Like apologize. And my roommate Izzati replied for me, “Srry2x, tapi sape ni?” I was just in disbelief that my friend actually sent that. 5 minutes gone by, he still didn't reply. I couldn't play The Sims 2 with a 100% focus, cam gabra lah kan. Sal dia x reply. 

But he did! He actually did. Typical of him, if you see his friendster you'd know what I mean, he HUMBLY replied, “Hamba Allah... Yang penting bukan Domino's Delivery Pizza, huhu...” I was excited as hell, he said “huhu” to me. How significant! Haha! So I didn't want to bother him anymore, thus I replied, “Betul2x, sorry, selamat hari raya. Maaf zahir batin.” I thought why not y'know, like he took an effort to reply to me, 017 and he's like 013. As expected, he replied back. “Okies, xpe. Selamat Hari Raya ke-15, hehe!” OMANG! I was just so stoked yesterday, a good way to start my freedom days which is already numbered. 

Next sem I am taking physics, a bit daunting actually. I mean, its physics, do the math right. My roommate Ilee is taking it this sem and she seems so stressed out, and she loves physics. With me, I don't like it at all, I don't. How would I do next sem, worst!!! I apologize for the ridiculous length of my blog, I just, haven't blog in years!!!

Atiqah's Name Drop of The Day: Michael Cera (my new celebrity crush, after watching SUPERBAD)

Atiqah's Song of The Day: Too Hot Too Stop by The Bar-Kays

WAITING FOR TONIGHT BY J.LO

frm Faruq Hamshi

1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. For each question press the ‘next’ button to get your answer.
3. You must write the name of the song down no matter what!!!
4. After you’ve answered all the questions tag 5 other people and let them know they’ve been tagged and to do the same themselves:


If someone says ‘is this okay?’ You say:
Best For Last - Adele

What would best describe your personality?
Diamonds are Forever - Kanye West (how ironic, ngahahahaha rotf)

What do you like in a guy/girl?
Why Can't I - Liz Phair

How do you feel today?
Sweet About Me - Gabriella Gilmi (how ironic again! me in UIA...)

What is your life’s purpose?
Bibir Merah - Sugar Loves Cookies

What do your friends think of you?
Tender Buttons - Broadcast

What do you think of your parents?
So Far Away - Carole King (holy sh*t!!! Its too true!!!)

What do you think about very often?
Takkan Pernah Melupakanmu - Couple

What is 2+2?
Die Alone - Ingrid Michaelson (speckled some butter, over my wholegrain bread...)

What do you think of the person you like?
A Little Less Conversation - Elvis Presley (Hell yeah! Lets get down & der-ty, less talk, more action!)

What is your life story?
Cold Shoulder - Adele (I beg 2 differ, thus, I shall give a 2nd answer)

The Way I Are - (ookkkaayyy, I mean, ookkkaayyy.)

What do you think when you see the person you like?
Lucky Man - The Verve (ngahahahaha! rightly so! that man is f**king lucky alrite!)

What do your parents think of you?
The Youth - MGMT (I'm juz in awe wif how synonymous this questionnaire is with my iTunes, just awe...)

What will you dance to at your wedding?
Hero / Heroine - Boys Like Girls (I disagree, which leads me 2 my 2nd answer)

All These Things That I've Done - The Killers

What will they play at your funeral?
Pagi Yang Gelap - Hujan (it won't b a funeral, more like a par-tay!)

What is your hobby/interest?
1973 - James Blunt (now I regret downloading this song, which leads me 2 hopefully a more relevant answer down below)

Penny Lane - The Beatles (somehow, it sounds kind of der-ty!)

What is your biggest secret?
Too Hot Too Stop - The Bar-Kays

What do you think of your closest friends?
Bedshaped - Keane (hahahaha! ok2x, 2nd answer juz in case some of them took it the wrong way)

Real Love - Regina Spektor (okay...)

What should you post this as?
Waiting For Tonight - J.Lo

But I prefer
In Certain Circumstances  The Otherside Oracle

the tag virus will infect:

- Fit je kuwt... 

-END OF TAG-

Sunway College, Machester (Stupid!) United & my new celebrity crush (And HE is MALAY! *gasps*)

I refuse to further my studies at UIA and at this current moment, I am seriously opting for Sunway College instead. 

I know, I know... I bet you guys are like, “Dah tu, kenapa apply for UIA?”

Well, okay so it was my first choice, I... I didn't expect to be accepted! Like, I thought PASUM perhaps or maybe UiTM. But no, I actually got it! I mean its kind of shocking, then again maybe not. Because I did miraculously score A1 for both of my Agama & English. Last Sunday I followed my parents to my mom's cousin's house who happens to be the vice chancellor of UIA. And her wife is such a wonderful person. She told me a story about this person who is also my age, who so badly wants to enter UIA and her result is like, 8A1! But here's the catch, he/or was it a she, is not accepted because his/her grade for English is D!!! I guess it kind of make sense since the I in UIA is International therefore you should at least get credit for the subject english.

So my mom's cousin whose name is Dato' Azmi said that I should do what I want. And I completely agree. Doing my foundation at UIA is the complete opposite of what I want. I mean, I expected the whole Fardhu Ain and Bahasa Arab but doing my foundation for 1 and a half or worst, 2 years, I didn't saw that one coming... Plus, when I decided to pursue engineering, I made my mind to do Chemical Engineering since Chemistry is one of my forte in high school. And guess what?! Out of all the degree courses, UIA have Electrical, Mechanical, Aerospace even, EXCEPT for effing Chemical Engineering!!! I mean, its my fault too. I should have made an earlier research. I feel stupid. I mean, it made me numb. When I compared the PROS and CONS of going to UIA. The CONS are just... UNCOUNTABLE! 

My confusion was suddenly too much to handle, so I followed my dad's advice and throughout the weekend, I performed Solat Sunat Istiqarah as much as possible. Hoping for some sort of epiphany from Allah swt perhaps, to tell me what to do with my life. I felt so pathetic, confused, numb, a bit stupid and I even had this constant headache to bear with every time I think of the predicament I'm in.

So after a long, long time spent on 'thinking'... I decided to take Accounting. So my parents instantly said, “Amiklah kat UIA., tukar course je...”

I was just like, “God they are relentless to sumbat me there.”

Nahi! No way! Absolutely not! I feel that if I want to take accounting, I shall either do it my way... Or the highway... Get it? Its a joke. Anyway... I figured why not I take CAT. I mean, its faster! I can beat that cousin of mine who is like this genius who got a MARA scholarship to go to Australia and do his accounting degree. (If I am not mistaken, I 'think' he took accounting) 

I have an aunt who is a lecturer at UiTM and she specializes in Accounting. So of course my dad wanted me to perhaps switch IPTAs and go do my accounting course at UiTM Shah Alam instead. A few nights ago, my dad told me to “holla” my aunt and ask if she could help me. I don't have the guts to inform her that I had a “change of heart” (so to speak) and switched from chemical engineering to accounting. I can already imagine her reaction to be, “Eeeiii... Budak ini... Bertuah betul.” Plus, among the reason why I gave up on chemical engineering completely is I don't think I can “bawak” the course. Let's face it, Physics was not exactly my forte at school. I even scored 32 or was it 34 for my Physics paper during my trial SPM examination. I mean, I am still in bewilderment until now on how I manage to score an A2 for my SPM. I mean, don't get me wrong, syukur alhamdulillah... The only reasonable explanation I can come up with is, “The graph definitely turun...”

So anyway, I want to do this CAT course instead because after a year of CAT, I can straight do my ACCA level 2 and level 3! How easy peasy did that sounded like?! Obviously, the more fast track it is, the harder it shall be!!! But I don't mind, the harder the better. Plus, 3 years from now, when I do graduate from Sunway College (hopefully, fingers crossed), I won't be among those graduates who are unemployed!!! What a scary thought, you make a loan to study at an IPTS just to found out later after you graduated that you cannot find a work to pay back the loan. I mean, that would suck a lot!

But as I was reading the booklet regarding this course, I understood the fact that the “Big 4” (some “independent”/swasta companies I assume. Not Man U, Arsenal, Liverpool & Chelsea) will likely to employ graduates from Sunway College. I guess that's a good sign. Now all I have to do is strive to get a high pointer. To be more exact, I will try my best to score each paper and try to avoid from “sangkut”. That would be a scary thought considering the money that is involved. Plus I figured that if I graduate with an ACCA, it would somehow give me an edge in terms of getting a job when compared to the other graduates who “simply” (lolz) graduated with a... DIPLOMA or a DEGREE. Since ACCA is a professional qualification, it should hopefully make me stand out and make my job prospects even better! So after CAT, ACCA Level 2 & 3, I am looking to be working at the tender age of... 22! (its pretty tender/young to me ok) That's good! Bring on the dough! I can't wait to pay back the loan and help my family financially in the future. 

Then again, this all “might” happen if I do enter Sunway College. Tomorrow I shall meet my dad's old friend, Miss Khatijah, and perhaps score a MARA Loan. Thing is, my dad likes the fact that this CAT course is faster and he knows that I can do it but his only problem is that he refuse to give me the dough required. He figured, since Kerajaan sanggup tanggung me for my foundation under UIA complete with elaun and all, why not go to UIA. Y'know, he doesn't have to use his money. Its not that my dad is thrifty, he's just, very very “berjimat cermat”. He really is. And my mom thinks its stupid the fact that, “Why should you make a loan and later after you graduated, you will have to pay it back. When the IPTAs are more affordable.”

I think that's crap. Like when Faruq and Kamilla was accompanying me for my break yesterday (Yup, I'm still working at Parkson), we were talking and comparing between budak-budak IPTA and budak-budak IPTS. And we agreed that a “few” budak-budak IPTA cam do not take their studies seriously because its not their money on the line. Its kerajaan's. They don't have that same pressure that most IPTS students have of having to score each paper knowing how much money is on the line. Thousands I mean... And its true... I absolutely agree.

On a much sour note, by now the whole world has come to terms with the fact that Man U won the Champions League blah blah blah blah... *yawn* All I can say is Vidic is one smart mother *beep* for provoking Drogba the way he did. What a good strategy Alex constantly-chewing-gum-and-should-f**king-retire-by-now Ferguson! “Hey! Let's provoke Drogba, Chelsea's goal scoring machine!” Owh f**k you!!! Despite of the red card, I am going to unashamedly admit that it felt good seeing Vidic with BLOOD all over his nose. What a wimp! *screams as I pulled my hair* 

I'm telling all you MAN U fans, if Drogba was on the field for the whole 90 minutes, WITHOUT A F**KING DOUBT, the game would not have even gone to the penalty shoot out phase. Man U would have been buried!!! *take a deep breath*

I don't know why the english in me suddenly surfaced (the swearing and all), I mean, I'm a SPURS fan for god sake. I was suppose to be a neutral. Oh yeah, maybe its because I owe my abang saudara top up Hotlink RM10 because his team, MAN U won... 

F**K!!!

On a much surprising/sweeter/lighter note, I have an announcement! I officially have a crush with a local celebrity / selebriti tempatan!!! I know, how shocking! I mean, even my cousin Iqa was in bewilderment and wanted to know so bad who is this “local celebrity”. Well I admit, he was around before. I seen him a lot on TV, acting in SAKA on TV3. I never thought he was cute, just “Boleh Tahan...” I mean he had this facial hair going on, like a stubble, and the character he played is such a PRICK! I'm sorry, like kasar giler perangai dia. So not attractive.

But I forgot. I completely forgot that he was acting the whole time. Like, it never occurred to me. It finally did occurred to me that he was acting in SAKA, when I saw the real him in... MELODI! Yup, that show with Farah Fauzana & Wahid Senario on TV3! I know, I know... How shocking! I actually do watch TV3 once or twice, believe it or not! There he was, CLEANLY SHAVEN and had this suit on which makes him look so... GOOD/YUMMY! I mean compared to the character he was playing on TV, with the backpack and all... So sloppy and, unattractive y'know... Oh yeah, and during the interview I can officially confirmed that he is S-I-N-G-L-E!!! Because that chinese girl asked him, “Apa ciri-ciri wanita idaman?” Suddenly my heart beat faster, I had to know. But he gracefully replied, “Bila saya bertunang atau berkahwin nanti, saya akan umumkan...”

Aaawww...

Problem is, I didn't catch his name. Zaini. Zed Zaidi. No... It was Za- sumthing. I forgot. So I googled him, and got his myspace page! So hopefully by now he has added me! *blushes* 

Fueled by Atiqah

Atiqah's name drop of the day: Miss Khatijah (who will hopefully give me the green light and the dough needed for me to hopefully further my studies at Sunway College, insya-Allah...)

Atiqah song of the day: All I Need by Radiohead (In the video, the asian part was definitely shot in Malaysia! Because like, the mean old woman said at the start of the video, “Bangun! Bangun!” OMG!!!)

Trixie! (And no, I'm not talking about Speed Racer's girlfriend)

Yup, I am referring to the new member of my family. Although right now which is on the 14th of May, 10:00 pm, my parents still have no idea that I just got Trixie. (I am one sneaky monkey. What a coincidance, I bought a Paul Frank t-shirt soon after purchasing my little 'bundle of joy'.) In fact, my mom is in some conference while my dad is, well busy. I cannot come up yet with a good reason about how Trixie is suddenly in the cage with JT.

Either its some stray animal that I decided to adopt, but that won't make sense because its fur is in such good condition or a friend of mine had a lot of rabbit and decided to give me one! Or, I could just tell the truth and said I bought it at carrefour for RM90!!! But the latter one would cost me. My dad goes crazy if he finds out I spend that much money on a rabbit. Like the worst case scenario, he'd tell me to return Trixie back. But he doesn't understand. 1st and foremostly you guys should see the state of my rabbit JT, its just sad. Like, he's in a mournful state. And secondly, it was the cheapest rabbit they sold in Carrefour. I wanted to buy this other rabbit because it reminded me so much of Chelsea. It had a darker shade to its fur, and it was so curious. So friendly, so everything Chelsea. But when I asked for the price it was effing RM250!!! My gaji masuk tomorrow anyway, on the 15th  but I had to resist the temptation.

My new rabbit, which I appropriately named Trixie (since I watched Speed Racer like 30 minutes before purchasing it) is such a shy rabbit. I don't know why but when JT met Trixie, it seems there are no chemistry, yet. Either both parties are shy or... I don't know... I hope they can work it out and become good friends. I really do...

Fueled by Atiqah...

Atiqah's name drop of the day: R.I.A. Chelsea...

Atiqah's song of the day: Goodbye Horses by Q Lazzarus

Gombak or Queensland???

Should I further my studies at UIA in Gombak, Selangor or University of Queensland in Australia.

After speculating about the pros and cons for both university I still can't make up  my mind. Well, I did got matrix in Tangkak, Johor. For the course of Sains Hayat. But I decided to skip it because I would like to go for Sains Fizikal. For my upu, I manage to score UIA! For the course of foundation in engineering. I know,   I know... Most of you guys must be in bewilderment! UIA & me just doesn't seem to fit together. The chemistry doesn't seem to be there. I'd play Old Yellow Bricks by Arctic Monkeys and the university wants me to play Intifhada by Rabbani. 

In fact I just met Govin(deran) earlier at Alamanda on my way to GSC Alamanda and when I drop the bomb that I am going to U to tha IA, his instant reaction was, “Wwwooo, that's so not you.” And that is so true. It amazes me how this person whom I haven't met for 2 years can still know what I am and what I am not. I mean, I have nothing against wearing tudung or learning bahasa Arab or any of that stuff at all. But the fact that I was typing it down a few seconds ago, just made me cringe. It made me cringe just even trying to imagine whether I can even do half of it.

My dad campaigned to me, in his normal aggressive manner (which is for the good of my future anyway so I'm fine with it), that maybe I should think twice about going to UIA. Basically, I just found out that I am not going to study for 2 semesters. I have to study for my 'foundation' for 4 semesters!!! What the ef!!! I'm not being paranoid but my friends who are doing their matrix is doing it for a year, my friend Kamilla is doing her foundation at UTP for like, a year too. When I think about it, it would drive me crazy if my friends are already studying for their degree and here I am, stuck in Petaling Jaya, still studying for my foundation. Boo-hoo!!! So I called the UIA office and I decided to throw a couple of bold questions like... Why is my foundation taking so effing long??? And she said, “Kat UIA nanti you akan belajar Fardhu Ain, Arab, English & ICT. Foundation or matrix kat tempat lain mana ada buat macam UIA. Sebab tu belajar foundation sampai 4 semester. If bijak, 3 semester je dah sampai.” It was something like that. And... Well, I figured, okay... There's the pros of studying there. Later I'll be doing my degree at Gombak since I'm doing engineering. Thank god. If I do took a medic related course they will campak me all the way to Kuantan, Pahang!!!

And if I go for Queensland, I'd have to do my foundation studies at Taylor's for a year. And later fly all the way to Gold Coast, cuci mata sekejap, and later register to study at St. Lucia, one of Queensland's campus. Okay, the description seems nice and simple. But let me drop the bomb. I'd have to make a loan from MARA worth effing RM700,000.00!!! Wow... Like, that's a lot... And my dad said, if you graduate with 1st Honours, you don't have to pay cent. If I graduate with 2nd Honors, I only have to pay 10% of the loan, which means around RM70,000.00!!! Plus, if I go study at Queensland, I already specialize in a field which is Chemical & Metallurgical engineering. 

Which means I'd graduate with Bachelor of Degree in Chemical & Metallurgical Engineering. But if I graduate from UIA, I'd graduate with a Bachelor of Degree in Chemical Engineering. Like, I won't specialize in a certain field. And, I already am certain that metallurgical is the field for me.

Basically, here's my plan if I go for UIA. Do my foundation at UIA for at least 3 semesters, then I'll do my degree at Gombak and it will all cost me less than RM50,000.00 . Later, I'll apply for a MARA or JPA scholarship to do my masters overseas. In fact, in some cases, if you get 'outstanding' results, the university themselves will sponsor you to do your masters or/and PhD overseas!!! I mean, my cousin got a JPA scholarship to go study at Pennsylvania, USA. And now, that university is offering her scholarship to do her masters! Or maybe it was PhD, I forgot.

But here's my long term plan if I go for Queensland. I do my foundation at Taylor's (which cost effing RM18,000 for the whole year) and the rest to do my Bachelor of Engineering at University of Queensland. Later, I'll strive and give up my all to at least graduate with a 2nd Honor, or even better, graduate with 1st Honor so my loan will be converted into a scholarship altogether!!! And if I'm lucky, Queensland will sponsor me to do my Masters!!! And later, I will apply to work as a chemical engineer for the steel company Arcelor Mittal. Yup, my future employer will be Lakshmi Mittal, one of the richest people in the world and if I'm not mistaken, he is worth effing 40.sumthing billion dollar!!! That is a lot!!! Like, my MARA loan is just a drop of bucket to him.

Anyway, I know, I know... Things are definitely easier said then done. Especially in this case. Its like, such a big risk! I don't want to be in debt 6 years from now and become a graduate that can't find a job and had to sell insurance to pay for the loan monthly y'know... I don't want that. I just have to make sure that I study really really hard. 

To be honest, I don't think I give my all/100% for my SPM, and I still manage to get a good result. I figured, if I push my limit a little bit, and put up a 110%, I might achieve something I never thought I could. Like, graduating with 1st Honor!!! Who knows... I will strive my best to achieve it, I really would. 'Just graduating' is not an option. Let's face it, I can't possibly pay RM700,000.0 . That is 'A LOT'! Pun intended.

Fueled by Atiqah

Atiqah's name drop of the day: Trixie!

Atiqah song of the day: Youth by Matisyahu