9 Things To Dread

People who point at their wrist while asking for the time.... I know where my watch is pal, where the hell is yours? Do I point at my crotch when I ask where the toilet is?

People who are willing to get off their ass to search the entire room for the T.V.. remote because they refuse to walk to the T.V. and change the channel manually.

When people say 'Oh you just want to have your cake and eat it too'. Damn right! What good is cake if you can't eat it?

When people say 'it's always the last place you look'. Of course it is. Why the hell would you keep looking after you've found it? Do people do this? Who and where are they? Gonna kick their asses!

When people say while watching a film 'did you see that?'. No Loser, I paid $12 to come to the cinema and stare at the damn floor.

People who ask 'Can I ask you a question?'.... Didn't really give me a choice there, did ya sunshine?

When something is 'new and improved!'. Which is it? If it's new, then there has never been anything before it. If it's an improvement, then there must have been something before it, couldn't be new.

When people say 'life is short'. What the hell?? Life is the longest damn thing anyone ever does!! What can you do that's longer?

When you are waiting for the bus and someone asks 'Has the bus come yet?'. If the bus came would I be standing here, dumbass?

PROCASTINATION!!!

I feel so unproductive throughout Hari Raya Haji’s holiday. I mean literally, unproductive (well I don’t mean sexually of course!). Not contributing at all to my family, I mean, I still haven’t had the hunch to like, learn to cook in the kitchen yet. I was just plain lazy for the whole week. Nothing was done, not one tuto not even one note. I haven’t even flipped to see the “ole2x” that my Math’s teacher left me with. I can only blame myself and my best friend a.k.a PROCASTINATION.

GOD!!! What am I becoming!!! I’m just sssooo lazy, I don’t know why?! I still haven’t hit me that I am in a friggin “semi-college” (since I’m studying at CFS, not technically a University yet).

The only thing I’m proud to announce here is that I have finished reading Eclipse, the third installment of Stephanie Meyer’s Twilight novels. And for the record, WORLD, I am on TEAM JACOB. I don’t know why? I just tend to root for the underdogs, maybe because I can relate to them or something. From my team, Tottenham Hotspurs to my celebrity crushes. I don’t crush on Johnny Depp or Brad Pitt, I prefer private man like Eric Bana. Anyway back to point, I finally finished all 600 pages! Crazy long, no, more like, SINFULLY LONG! I’m still a little bummed that I haven’t got my hand on the fouth book, BREAKING DAWN. I’m kind of looking forward to Edward’s & Bella’s marriage, I am even more looking forward to how Jacob will deal with all this. Poor boy, I hope he will imprint on a girl who deserves his love more than, BELLA. Bella, stupid Bella!!! Owh well, if Robert Pattison was EDWARD, I might make a biased choice too.

Anyways, throughout a month I haven’t blogged, tons of things happened. Among the highlights was that I was exempted from taking English Level 6, and hooray! My contact hour is 9 hour less (what a relief!) and all my classes from Monday to Thursday starts on 10 am. Owh wait, except for Wednesday, I have Fardhu Ain class at 9 am (sigh). I feel very blessed that my Monday class starts at 10 am, I can go back to UIA from home on Monday instead. The thought of starting the week with a hot shower makes the crazy jam worth it all, despite of the fact that my dad would most likely be driving. Not me (giggles!).

Driving. Drive. Am I a good driver? Well, I am proud to say that I have yet to scratch my family’s one and only car, the NAZA RIA (YET, though hopefully that time would never come). Nevertheless, I admit they were a few, “close encounters” so to speak. I’m not talking an inch, more like, a millimeter. I swear to god, but being the excellent driver I am with extraordinary precision, I manage to avoid any accidents so far. I admit, I still get nervous driving. My problem is that I tinker a lot, like Rafael Benetiz. I overthink. Once my dad hand me the key I get so excited to drive that I even forgot to correct the, “cermin to tengok kereta belakang” (I 4got!). And then it suddenly washed me that, I’m not only driving myself, I’m also driving my parents, and sometimes my cousins and friends. And I realize I’m in control. I have to take this seriously, their life is in my hand. Just one stupid mistake and I cannot say “Sorry20x” and everything will be ok again, its like, DO OR DIE or something. Its life or death, driving is a serious matter. Still, I dream to one day drive like my dad. I mean, he’s an insane driver. I’m not lying, I’m not saying this cause he’s my dad or whatever. But seriously, if my dad was not my dad, I’d still admit he’s a friggin good driver! Like, I honestly think he can go 160km/h with one hand while texting on the other. Heck I wouldn’t be surprised if he can do it with his eyes closed!!! Like last year when I went to Cameron Highland with my dad and my friend Aina, he was sooo “ridiculous” behind the wheels! Everyone knows how the road is, right left right left non stop.

So like we had 3 buses in front of us, what did my dad do, he “potong” all 3 of them! One by one of course, and it was like a horror movie for me and Aina at the back on the passenger’s seat. My feet cannot stop pushing the floor of the car, as if I could influence the brake of the car or something. My dad is the only human being who can be on the wheels and I am confident enough to close my eyes and sleep.

On a much brighter note, this year’s Raya Haji was something. I finally reconnected to a cousin of mine whom usually I’d be to shy to talk to. I mean, we’re both old now and cam, rasa malu lah kan. But its nice, I can finally be myself around him. And its so cool, that’s what family should be about. Apart from that, my mom, my brother and I put our name on a cow. I refuse to see a cow, or in this year’s case, almost all 13 cow gets slaughtered. I will feel like, this intense feeling of sympathy. Which is stupid! I admit, my friend told me how the cows are actually honored to be slaughtered because they’re going straight to heaven.

It was kind of embarrassing this year’s Hari Raya Haji. I cried! I friggin cried! They were 10 or 20 little children at the “slaughtering site” and they all looked at me like I’m stupid. I didn’t cry out loud or anything, I just couldn’t stop tears flowing from my eyes as I see the fear in the cow’s eyes. I probably would feel the same way if I saw my friends being slaughtered in front of my own eyes! I don’t know if I should feel sorry for the cow on my name, it was sooo wild and such a fighter. When anybody tried to be near him/her, it started to “tanduk” them as self defense. He/she was just trying his/her best to avoid being slaughtered, it refuses to die.

Next to me was my mom forcing me to take a video of the whole slaughtering, I couldn’t even look! Nevertheless to take a video?! But I swallowed it all in, after figuring I got a good shot and angle, I took the video and looked away. I couldn’t, I’d feel sympathy thus resulting on me not getting to eat its meat. God I sound barbaric…

I don’t know what else to write, but I promise I shall start updating my blog more frequently. Once a week or something, but we’ll see…

Atiqah’s Name Drop of The Day: My not so secret anymore crush, *beep*

Atiqah’s Song of The Day: Talk by Coldplay

Freedom!!!

On the 15th of October I have officially finished my last exam paper, Chemistry!!! What a release!!! Sweet taste of freedom that is. So I haven't blogged in a while, I use to do it like, all the time. But these days, even if I do surf the internet, I would either:-

(i) Download lots & lots of new music (I barely listen to the radio).

(ii) Stalk on my crush on his friendster (ngahahahaha, ppl don't change)

(iii) Open youtube.com

(iv) Download new clothes, new hair for my sims

I just literally gave up on my blogspot life, but when I saw that questionnaire at Faruq's blog, it just triggered the blogger in me to continue blogging. Haha!

To start of, a few days ago something happened to my Isabelle (my macbook). The power button of my macbook kind of get tilted inwards, so, when I push the button, I don't get the feel that its clicking downwards. Plus, its like, my mac has a trouble deciphering whether I want to turn it on or not, so like, it will turn on if I push the button hard enough or if I push it twice (the second time harder). And like, not only is it bothering me, but it is also frustrating me. So I'm going to get it fix, by tomorrow hopefully at the Apple Store in MidValley. I just need my dad to give me a lift, and bring me the warranty.

I planned to go today, to Low Yat where I bought my laptop, but I'm worried about two things:-

(i) if I go straight from UIA, I don't have the macbook's warranty with me, so if I do ask them to fix it and they'll charge, what a waste when I actually do have a warranty.

(ii) and secondly, UIA has this strict policy that you can only go outing on fridays, saturdays & sundays, and its a complete B. S. There's 2days til' I leave the campus, give me a fuckin' break! 

Like if I want to go outing on non-regular outing hours, I have to write a friggin letter to the principal of my mahallah (hostel). Get her approval. Like when I want to go to my uncle's open house, he lives in Damansara, so my parents thought they could just pick me up and I can tag along. So I asked for the permission of the mahallah, they told me to write a friggin letter (in English of course) asking for the principal's permission. I had to change the title from “Permission To Go Out To My Uncle's Open House” to “Permission To Go Out To My Uncle's TAHLIL”, it seems more appropriate I guess. So I did, I put pen to paper. But nnnooo... I have to get the principal's permission, okie doks. But nnnooo again, she doesn't believe me. She wants to talk to my mum, turns out my mum is unreachable. So I called my dad, she talked to my dad, finally I got the approval. 

*sigh*

And that's completely B.S., because my cousin Iqa (who is studying in UM) gets to go out whenever she f**king wants to.

Okay2x, on a much much brighter note. The nastiest thing happened yesterday. After finishing my Chemistry paper, the only relevant thing for me to do was reaching for my macbook and play The Sims 2 University. So while my friend & I take turns playing, I thought I sms my cousin, Fatin, to ask her what do she usually order for Domino's Pizza delivery. But with a slip of finger, I sent it to a different number. And unknown number to be more exact. My friend, Athirah, use my phone the other day. So typical of a Sony Ericsson phone, they will save the recent number used when you sms right, I guess I accidentally clicked on this unknown number.

It was Athirah's friend, a guy. So after apologizing, the whole “accidentally smsing someone” triggered something in me. “Wouldn't it be funny if I accidentally sms'ed my crush? *who's like a f**king saint in and around the campus.* Long story short, I decided what the heck, its the end of the semester. This guy, lets just refer to him as MC, is taking engineering too. In UIA, typically for engineering students you have to  do your foundation for 2 years. But if you're smart... One and a half year! Appareantly not only is he the man of my dreams in more ways then one, but he is also like, smart! And tragically, that means he is doing his foundation for a year and a half. (and like that sucks and all, that why I kinda wish that he would repeat some paper or something. Haha!!!)

So like, here I am trying to find the perfect line to sms him. Cam x sengaja lah gitu. So the only relevant thing I can think of was, “Iqa, ko tahu tak no. fon Domino's Delivery Pizza?” Cam x sengajalah gitu, hehe! It was like when I sms'ed Aidil from Couple, I just thought I got nothing to lose, if he didn't sms me back then fine. Fine!

But he did, he actually did! I was so stoked. When my phone rang, “You got a tiny text message, a very tiny one, please read it.” Me and my roommate was in awe, I was so excited sampai tergolek-golek atas lantai. Like literally. I quickly grabbed my phone and read the message and he sent back, “Aduhai... Salah nombor lah.” I squealed in a 100 decibel tone. I actually talked to him, in like, an indirect sengaja kind of way. 

The big question arise, should I reply back. Like apologize. And my roommate Izzati replied for me, “Srry2x, tapi sape ni?” I was just in disbelief that my friend actually sent that. 5 minutes gone by, he still didn't reply. I couldn't play The Sims 2 with a 100% focus, cam gabra lah kan. Sal dia x reply. 

But he did! He actually did. Typical of him, if you see his friendster you'd know what I mean, he HUMBLY replied, “Hamba Allah... Yang penting bukan Domino's Delivery Pizza, huhu...” I was excited as hell, he said “huhu” to me. How significant! Haha! So I didn't want to bother him anymore, thus I replied, “Betul2x, sorry, selamat hari raya. Maaf zahir batin.” I thought why not y'know, like he took an effort to reply to me, 017 and he's like 013. As expected, he replied back. “Okies, xpe. Selamat Hari Raya ke-15, hehe!” OMANG! I was just so stoked yesterday, a good way to start my freedom days which is already numbered. 

Next sem I am taking physics, a bit daunting actually. I mean, its physics, do the math right. My roommate Ilee is taking it this sem and she seems so stressed out, and she loves physics. With me, I don't like it at all, I don't. How would I do next sem, worst!!! I apologize for the ridiculous length of my blog, I just, haven't blog in years!!!

Atiqah's Name Drop of The Day: Michael Cera (my new celebrity crush, after watching SUPERBAD)

Atiqah's Song of The Day: Too Hot Too Stop by The Bar-Kays

WAITING FOR TONIGHT BY J.LO

frm Faruq Hamshi

1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. For each question press the ‘next’ button to get your answer.
3. You must write the name of the song down no matter what!!!
4. After you’ve answered all the questions tag 5 other people and let them know they’ve been tagged and to do the same themselves:


If someone says ‘is this okay?’ You say:
Best For Last - Adele

What would best describe your personality?
Diamonds are Forever - Kanye West (how ironic, ngahahahaha rotf)

What do you like in a guy/girl?
Why Can't I - Liz Phair

How do you feel today?
Sweet About Me - Gabriella Gilmi (how ironic again! me in UIA...)

What is your life’s purpose?
Bibir Merah - Sugar Loves Cookies

What do your friends think of you?
Tender Buttons - Broadcast

What do you think of your parents?
So Far Away - Carole King (holy sh*t!!! Its too true!!!)

What do you think about very often?
Takkan Pernah Melupakanmu - Couple

What is 2+2?
Die Alone - Ingrid Michaelson (speckled some butter, over my wholegrain bread...)

What do you think of the person you like?
A Little Less Conversation - Elvis Presley (Hell yeah! Lets get down & der-ty, less talk, more action!)

What is your life story?
Cold Shoulder - Adele (I beg 2 differ, thus, I shall give a 2nd answer)

The Way I Are - (ookkkaayyy, I mean, ookkkaayyy.)

What do you think when you see the person you like?
Lucky Man - The Verve (ngahahahaha! rightly so! that man is f**king lucky alrite!)

What do your parents think of you?
The Youth - MGMT (I'm juz in awe wif how synonymous this questionnaire is with my iTunes, just awe...)

What will you dance to at your wedding?
Hero / Heroine - Boys Like Girls (I disagree, which leads me 2 my 2nd answer)

All These Things That I've Done - The Killers

What will they play at your funeral?
Pagi Yang Gelap - Hujan (it won't b a funeral, more like a par-tay!)

What is your hobby/interest?
1973 - James Blunt (now I regret downloading this song, which leads me 2 hopefully a more relevant answer down below)

Penny Lane - The Beatles (somehow, it sounds kind of der-ty!)

What is your biggest secret?
Too Hot Too Stop - The Bar-Kays

What do you think of your closest friends?
Bedshaped - Keane (hahahaha! ok2x, 2nd answer juz in case some of them took it the wrong way)

Real Love - Regina Spektor (okay...)

What should you post this as?
Waiting For Tonight - J.Lo

But I prefer
In Certain Circumstances  The Otherside Oracle

the tag virus will infect:

- Fit je kuwt... 

-END OF TAG-

Sunway College, Machester (Stupid!) United & my new celebrity crush (And HE is MALAY! *gasps*)

I refuse to further my studies at UIA and at this current moment, I am seriously opting for Sunway College instead. 

I know, I know... I bet you guys are like, “Dah tu, kenapa apply for UIA?”

Well, okay so it was my first choice, I... I didn't expect to be accepted! Like, I thought PASUM perhaps or maybe UiTM. But no, I actually got it! I mean its kind of shocking, then again maybe not. Because I did miraculously score A1 for both of my Agama & English. Last Sunday I followed my parents to my mom's cousin's house who happens to be the vice chancellor of UIA. And her wife is such a wonderful person. She told me a story about this person who is also my age, who so badly wants to enter UIA and her result is like, 8A1! But here's the catch, he/or was it a she, is not accepted because his/her grade for English is D!!! I guess it kind of make sense since the I in UIA is International therefore you should at least get credit for the subject english.

So my mom's cousin whose name is Dato' Azmi said that I should do what I want. And I completely agree. Doing my foundation at UIA is the complete opposite of what I want. I mean, I expected the whole Fardhu Ain and Bahasa Arab but doing my foundation for 1 and a half or worst, 2 years, I didn't saw that one coming... Plus, when I decided to pursue engineering, I made my mind to do Chemical Engineering since Chemistry is one of my forte in high school. And guess what?! Out of all the degree courses, UIA have Electrical, Mechanical, Aerospace even, EXCEPT for effing Chemical Engineering!!! I mean, its my fault too. I should have made an earlier research. I feel stupid. I mean, it made me numb. When I compared the PROS and CONS of going to UIA. The CONS are just... UNCOUNTABLE! 

My confusion was suddenly too much to handle, so I followed my dad's advice and throughout the weekend, I performed Solat Sunat Istiqarah as much as possible. Hoping for some sort of epiphany from Allah swt perhaps, to tell me what to do with my life. I felt so pathetic, confused, numb, a bit stupid and I even had this constant headache to bear with every time I think of the predicament I'm in.

So after a long, long time spent on 'thinking'... I decided to take Accounting. So my parents instantly said, “Amiklah kat UIA., tukar course je...”

I was just like, “God they are relentless to sumbat me there.”

Nahi! No way! Absolutely not! I feel that if I want to take accounting, I shall either do it my way... Or the highway... Get it? Its a joke. Anyway... I figured why not I take CAT. I mean, its faster! I can beat that cousin of mine who is like this genius who got a MARA scholarship to go to Australia and do his accounting degree. (If I am not mistaken, I 'think' he took accounting) 

I have an aunt who is a lecturer at UiTM and she specializes in Accounting. So of course my dad wanted me to perhaps switch IPTAs and go do my accounting course at UiTM Shah Alam instead. A few nights ago, my dad told me to “holla” my aunt and ask if she could help me. I don't have the guts to inform her that I had a “change of heart” (so to speak) and switched from chemical engineering to accounting. I can already imagine her reaction to be, “Eeeiii... Budak ini... Bertuah betul.” Plus, among the reason why I gave up on chemical engineering completely is I don't think I can “bawak” the course. Let's face it, Physics was not exactly my forte at school. I even scored 32 or was it 34 for my Physics paper during my trial SPM examination. I mean, I am still in bewilderment until now on how I manage to score an A2 for my SPM. I mean, don't get me wrong, syukur alhamdulillah... The only reasonable explanation I can come up with is, “The graph definitely turun...”

So anyway, I want to do this CAT course instead because after a year of CAT, I can straight do my ACCA level 2 and level 3! How easy peasy did that sounded like?! Obviously, the more fast track it is, the harder it shall be!!! But I don't mind, the harder the better. Plus, 3 years from now, when I do graduate from Sunway College (hopefully, fingers crossed), I won't be among those graduates who are unemployed!!! What a scary thought, you make a loan to study at an IPTS just to found out later after you graduated that you cannot find a work to pay back the loan. I mean, that would suck a lot!

But as I was reading the booklet regarding this course, I understood the fact that the “Big 4” (some “independent”/swasta companies I assume. Not Man U, Arsenal, Liverpool & Chelsea) will likely to employ graduates from Sunway College. I guess that's a good sign. Now all I have to do is strive to get a high pointer. To be more exact, I will try my best to score each paper and try to avoid from “sangkut”. That would be a scary thought considering the money that is involved. Plus I figured that if I graduate with an ACCA, it would somehow give me an edge in terms of getting a job when compared to the other graduates who “simply” (lolz) graduated with a... DIPLOMA or a DEGREE. Since ACCA is a professional qualification, it should hopefully make me stand out and make my job prospects even better! So after CAT, ACCA Level 2 & 3, I am looking to be working at the tender age of... 22! (its pretty tender/young to me ok) That's good! Bring on the dough! I can't wait to pay back the loan and help my family financially in the future. 

Then again, this all “might” happen if I do enter Sunway College. Tomorrow I shall meet my dad's old friend, Miss Khatijah, and perhaps score a MARA Loan. Thing is, my dad likes the fact that this CAT course is faster and he knows that I can do it but his only problem is that he refuse to give me the dough required. He figured, since Kerajaan sanggup tanggung me for my foundation under UIA complete with elaun and all, why not go to UIA. Y'know, he doesn't have to use his money. Its not that my dad is thrifty, he's just, very very “berjimat cermat”. He really is. And my mom thinks its stupid the fact that, “Why should you make a loan and later after you graduated, you will have to pay it back. When the IPTAs are more affordable.”

I think that's crap. Like when Faruq and Kamilla was accompanying me for my break yesterday (Yup, I'm still working at Parkson), we were talking and comparing between budak-budak IPTA and budak-budak IPTS. And we agreed that a “few” budak-budak IPTA cam do not take their studies seriously because its not their money on the line. Its kerajaan's. They don't have that same pressure that most IPTS students have of having to score each paper knowing how much money is on the line. Thousands I mean... And its true... I absolutely agree.

On a much sour note, by now the whole world has come to terms with the fact that Man U won the Champions League blah blah blah blah... *yawn* All I can say is Vidic is one smart mother *beep* for provoking Drogba the way he did. What a good strategy Alex constantly-chewing-gum-and-should-f**king-retire-by-now Ferguson! “Hey! Let's provoke Drogba, Chelsea's goal scoring machine!” Owh f**k you!!! Despite of the red card, I am going to unashamedly admit that it felt good seeing Vidic with BLOOD all over his nose. What a wimp! *screams as I pulled my hair* 

I'm telling all you MAN U fans, if Drogba was on the field for the whole 90 minutes, WITHOUT A F**KING DOUBT, the game would not have even gone to the penalty shoot out phase. Man U would have been buried!!! *take a deep breath*

I don't know why the english in me suddenly surfaced (the swearing and all), I mean, I'm a SPURS fan for god sake. I was suppose to be a neutral. Oh yeah, maybe its because I owe my abang saudara top up Hotlink RM10 because his team, MAN U won... 

F**K!!!

On a much surprising/sweeter/lighter note, I have an announcement! I officially have a crush with a local celebrity / selebriti tempatan!!! I know, how shocking! I mean, even my cousin Iqa was in bewilderment and wanted to know so bad who is this “local celebrity”. Well I admit, he was around before. I seen him a lot on TV, acting in SAKA on TV3. I never thought he was cute, just “Boleh Tahan...” I mean he had this facial hair going on, like a stubble, and the character he played is such a PRICK! I'm sorry, like kasar giler perangai dia. So not attractive.

But I forgot. I completely forgot that he was acting the whole time. Like, it never occurred to me. It finally did occurred to me that he was acting in SAKA, when I saw the real him in... MELODI! Yup, that show with Farah Fauzana & Wahid Senario on TV3! I know, I know... How shocking! I actually do watch TV3 once or twice, believe it or not! There he was, CLEANLY SHAVEN and had this suit on which makes him look so... GOOD/YUMMY! I mean compared to the character he was playing on TV, with the backpack and all... So sloppy and, unattractive y'know... Oh yeah, and during the interview I can officially confirmed that he is S-I-N-G-L-E!!! Because that chinese girl asked him, “Apa ciri-ciri wanita idaman?” Suddenly my heart beat faster, I had to know. But he gracefully replied, “Bila saya bertunang atau berkahwin nanti, saya akan umumkan...”

Aaawww...

Problem is, I didn't catch his name. Zaini. Zed Zaidi. No... It was Za- sumthing. I forgot. So I googled him, and got his myspace page! So hopefully by now he has added me! *blushes* 

Fueled by Atiqah

Atiqah's name drop of the day: Miss Khatijah (who will hopefully give me the green light and the dough needed for me to hopefully further my studies at Sunway College, insya-Allah...)

Atiqah song of the day: All I Need by Radiohead (In the video, the asian part was definitely shot in Malaysia! Because like, the mean old woman said at the start of the video, “Bangun! Bangun!” OMG!!!)