PRECIOUS~!

Omo. Looks like the last time I blogged on my blogspot was like, nearly 2 months ago!!!


Well its mainly because I’m lazy anddd… I’m just not in the blogging mood. This even after 2 weeks since my finals ended. I have literally become a couch potato + lazy bum. Though I have been cooking and helping my dad out in the kitchen. I actually cooked AYAM PEDAS the other day, well with the help of my dad of course. Without him I might even burn the house down, XD Even my dad was like, “Take a picture! This is historic. You can show it to your friends later.”


Looking back, I wonder if he was just being “sarcastic”. Anyhoo, I’ve been dying to watch this film online. PRECIOUS. Yeah sure it was very hyped up but apart from that, I just want to watch a real gritty movie. Basically, because of my super sslloowww internet connection, I’ve only watched the 1st 10 minutes of the movie. The 1st 10 minutes already had a “WTF moment”, which was when her OWN dad fucking raped her, and her mom just stood there doing fucking nothing about it.



Apparently in this movie, Precious is an overweight teenager who is illiterate living in Harlem around the year 1987 who is currently pregnant with her 2nd child. She’s literally still in junior high. I can’t wait to finish this movie. Hopefully my internet connection will speed up a bit.


So this upcoming Thursday, my finals result will come out. Lying if I say I’m not one bit nervous, cause I am. I just don’t want to repeat any subject. If anything, I am very concerned with my Physics 4. I failed my mid term paper, if my dad knows I’m dead. ← exaggerate-much.


Regardless, I’m scared. I just don’t wanna go back there again (UIA PJ). No, 2 years is mmoorree than enough. But, kalau dah ditakdirkan that I shall have to repeat any subject, I shall accept my fate. I’m sure ada hikmah disebalik all of this.



Now, to a much much JOYOUS NEWS. SUPER JUNIOR is coming to tooowwwnnn!!!!



I can’t wait to see si won’s ABS (LIVE~!!!):



HEESICA – I hope gee will be performed :



and SULHEE – I wanna see chu~ suju style :



I can’t wait, I can’t wait~!!!


I’ll post me & my cousin’s tickets soon. Did I mention I even got this hhhuuugggeee SUJU poster too. I mean its, its huge. Now I know I exaggerate a lot but this is the truth. I’ll post piccies soon. (credits to Nina & Kak Fida~!)


I think that’s all for now, I’ll try to blog more consistenly. Though I have been blogging on my tumblr too. Its crazy, I “micro-blog” at twitter, but I also blog at Live Journal (my 1st ever blog), blogspot and more recently tumblr. I even have a tumblr dedicated towards my kpop obsession so due drop by : www.sujuobsession.tumblr.com


P/S : I'm lovviinngg my new LJ layout, its flowery~!

NEW YEARS = NEW BRACES = MORE HAPPINESS = LESS DRAMA

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ITS FUCKING NEW YEARS ALREADY!!!

*admittedly the cursing was unnecessary but that's just how i exaggerate*

the f**ked up part was that i spent it at home, asleep, in my kaften, on my bed, completely unconscious.

like i was literally, asleep. though i woke up by myself at around 1.30 am to notice that i've completely missed out in all the drama & commotion.

oh well...

so! what are my new year's resolution this year:

1. to beautify my ibadah towards Allah s.w.t *I know I'm still lacking in that department...*

2. to be a better daughter to my parents.

3. to be a better friend towards my friends, esp my roommate. srry guys, i know i can be pretty loud at times.



if i can achieve all these 3 as cheesy as it all may sound, i think i'd be happy.

admittedly, i haven't blogged recently because my life was just so full of ups and downs. literally.

a day before my birthday hankyung filed a lawsuit against sm which may cause him to leave super junior. *i know its a no big deal to like, 19/20 of the population of the world but as a TRUE ELF, it totallyyy matters*

then on my birthday my friend's were completely ignorant of it, which I swear to god, I didn't take it PERSONALLY simply because I thought THEY too, were affected with the whole hankyung commotion.

but later at night, at around 11 pm, before i officially turn 19 and 1 day, my roommates and a whole couple of friends wished me a happy birthday with 2 chocolate cakes and even pranking me in the bathroom and later in the room that is KC 704.


jaga2 korang, esp u ili. u even took my bra and hid it in your locker!!! wtf???!!!

when its you guys punya birthday plak, bukan NILA je aku letak, u ili, aku letak buah fav ko skali, peram2 lagi, DURIAN!!!


u heard me gurl!!

then a couple of days later, my mom called me, crying. and i knew it. i knew it instantly. my mom's sister, my aunt just died. eventhough i had an exam coming up, it was just BTQ, i decided to go and balik kluang. i don't think i want to talk more about it, it'll just put me in a down mood. with the whole family drama that went on...

i don't know... last week was the hardest week of the year 2009. it was literally, bittersweet. when it was sweet, it was too sweet. but when it was BITTER, i can't even swallow it.



so technically, i haven't gotten a birthday present from my parents. malulah... buat apa nak berkira... birthday or not, i'm indebted to them for life! plus with my aunt's sudden pass away, it would be rude for me to demand anything.

now that i'm old enough, i know better. it doesn't matter. birthday cake or not. as long as you spend it with the people you love.

last nite, my mom offered to get me a new hp.

i was a bit stunned. my mom sanggup beli fon yg potong duit kredit kad dia tiap2 bulan. but in the list it was just samsung, samsung omnia lah. i'm not very familiar with samsung's featured tbh.

like at this point of my life, and i swear to god i'm not exaggerating, the only 2 phones i'd like to own is:

1. iPhone (even hankyung has 1 and donghae unless it was an iTouch...)

2. blackberry (a white one, the one that heidi montag owns)

of course, i'm realistic about it. if i was to own and buy one myself, it'd probably be a couple of years from now where there would probably be a better and newer version of both.

nak cucuk my parents, hhmm... seganlah pulak.

so now i'm at another crossroad in my life, to own another phone, which is not exactly my dream phone, but at least its a NEW PHONE. or... wait until i can get my DREAM phone, which i can't take my eyes off.

but you know how life works. i'd probably end up with my old phone.



so my dad just drop the randomest news yesterday. he informed me that the night before he and my mom went to alamanda and bought a 42 inch PHILLIPS LCD TV!!!



believe me it was shocking because i assure you here and now, my dad is probably the most frugal human being in MALAYSIA at least... he'd never spend anything without a good cause. so yeah, it was totally random and took me off guard.

the best part, it even has USB connections!!! i mean that's just the icing on the cake people... to think that i can play all my super junior vids on a 42 inch TV?! Allah s.w.t has answered my prayer, literally... *exaggerate-much*

the tv was suppose to be sent today. omomomomo... i can't wait. the 1st think i'm going to do tonight is definitely brain-washing my parents with all the suju vids i have starting from exploration of human body, full house, intimate note, come to play, etc.

i'm literally turning my parents into an ELF!!! u heard me!!!



but i do worry if it can play the avi. and flv. format. o well, we'll see how it goes... *nervous*

Singing in The Rain~!

“that's wat life is all about, unfairness, full of sh*t, and constantly a b*tch.” Quote from myself.



I swear to god sometimes I wish the world is like the film zombieland. Just full of zombies and less humans. Less human equals to less drama for me. And that’s a good enough of a world for me. Plus, it would be fun to shoot those zombies or anything living (sort of) without feeling guilty.

Today I’m very unproductive. Oh wait, I did translated my mom’s report. But apart from that, I’m such a bad daughter. I think my dad is the only father in the world who can accept a girl like me as her daughter. I appreciate though having lunch with him at medan selera pre. 9. Its times like these that makes me realize what matters the most in this life, your parents. I once thought about this when I was little, that if I was to lose any or even both of my parents, that I was gonna commit suicide. Haha, literally. I just, didn’t know how to survive without them. I don’t know, maybe its because I’m a****ed.



One of my greatest fear in life, is to lose them. Even worst, to lose them, and not having the chance to repay them back. That’s all I aim in life, to make lots of money, and give them anything they want. Of course these materials don’t matter a thing to my parents, they actually get mad at me for buying them anything at all for their birthdays. I once made a promise and I shall stand by it. Once I’m getting a constant salary, I promised my dad a Tag Heuer watch and my mom an Ogawa Massage Chair.



I use to have a dream, an unrealistic one. But I imagined once that I had a loft, situated nicely at the Tribeca area in New York. I think I was a student at Columbia University, doing my Masters or PhD perhaps, or maybe I was a lecturer there, but the best part was that I brought my parents with me. My mom was there to cook for me because admittedly, I’m not the best cook in the world. Then I had my dad, who took such good care of the garden at my balcony and rooftop area. Every morning, when I go to class to “Columbia University”, my mom will go to the ‘halal’ grocery store while my dad jogs at Central Park.



Oh well, a girl can dream. That above, is of course. The ULTIMATE DREAM. It was fueled even more when I watched a re-run of the Panic Room the other day. This evening though, I opened channel 303, KBS World to watch Dream Team. Eun Hyuk of Super Junior and Minho of SHINee was on which got me excited enough to cheer them up. The funny part was when my mom cheered Eun Hyuk on when he was at the monkey bars by literally yelling, “Cepatlah~! Badan ko kecik je, muat!! Cepatlah!!! Cepat!!!” I laughed my ass off, literally.



Enough laughing. I think it’s for me to sleep. Hopefully I get to watch Avatar tomorrow with Kamilla. *fingers crossed*

Zombieland, Sophia Ridza and everything in between~!

Today I woke at 10.45 am, only to realize that my appointment with my dear friend Kamilla whom I haven’t hang out with since forever, is at 11 am!!!



The f**ked up part is that I actually continued sleeping until 11.15 am. Thank god she sms’ed me, so I took my shower around 11.30.



After picking me up, we went to Alamanda. We sort of contemplated on where to eat. It was hard, weirdly. She wants me to pick where, but I wanted her to pick where. Usually when I go out to Midvalley with my UIA friends, I sort of gravitate towards Chicken Rice Shop which I think I’m secretly addicted to. And most of them are sick with Chicken Rice now, understandably.



When we were at GSC, we didn’t know what to watch. I’ve watched New Moon and I so don’t recommend it to her, it was almost as boring as pulp fiction but minus the filthy words. Just dialogues after dialogues with Kristin Stewart’s stupid emotionless face that makes me want to slap her. Kamilla on the other hand has watched Zombieland. So it was either Santau or Couples Retreat. Too bad there was no perfect time slot for Couples Retreat, so Kamilla picked Zombieland. In return, I pick Chicken Rice shop as a place to eat.



Okay that was boring, though when we were seated, we met with our high school friend, ZulAsyraf. We use to be in the same form during form 1 to 3! So yeah, very happy to meet and talk to him. 1.30 we watched Zombieland, that movie is funny in a smart way. I actually enjoyed it, it wasn’t another tacky zombie movie. I love the whole “rule” concept, FUN-NY!!!



It wasn’t just good times though the movie, it was still very disgusting. The double tap and the…



But to me, Shaun of The Dead will always be my all time favourite comedy/zombie movie. Its hilarious!!!





Liz : …and that only exacerbates thing.

Shaun : What do you mean?

Liz : Well with me bringing my flat mates out and you bringing out your flat mate out, things aren’t getting better. *I don’t think this was the exact dialogue.*

Shaun : No, I meant, what does exacerbate means?

Liz : *burn* It means, to make things worse. XD

After that we went online at Big Apple, Kamilla showing me her Conquer character while I took the advantage of the fast connection to download the audio to the super show 2 album. I’m listening to it as we speak, its sssooo good. It gives the illusion as if you’re at the concert!!!



I guess that’s all for today, I’m thoroughly tired now. Though I just read about this girl names Sophia Ridza. And damn do I envy her.



I’m definitely blogging about her soon, tomorrow perhaps. Adios~!

Doodles~!

I realize it has been quite sometime since I blogged, ‘consistently’. I always do though. It’s as if, me and blogging, comes in seasons. When it’s the right time, I’ll blog. It’s not that I’m not online all the time, I do. ALL THE TIME, literally. I just prefer to open other things which results in limited time to blog since everytime I blog, I literally blog as if I’m writing a novel.



So right now is the mid sem break, 2 important mid sem paper has been taken, 2 major core courses. Calculus and physics. Aarrgghh~! I’m still a bit bummed with the last paper, physics. I really am. I literally, felt like sh*t after that paper. LITERALLY… It was ssoo frustrating. You know that kind of feeling you get, when you give up your all for that one paper, to fail miserably when it matters the most, when its time to put pen to paper. U fucking failed. AARRGGHH~!



The joy of mid sem break pretty much falls apart, I wasn’t looking forward to mid sem break. At all. Except for the prospect of having my own privacy in my bedroom, sleeping as long as I want, waking up as late as I want, just basically being a pig. Any form of break a.k.a holidays is like me winning a ticket to literally be a PIG~! Okay so I exaggerated. Though this mid sem I’ll try my best to change, I’ll… *awkward pause*, help out in the kitchen. “Kemas-kemas rumah sikit…”



To be honest, amat takde mood nak kuar this break. Maybe to catch a movie. But, I don’t know. Am I becoming a home person these days? I don’t know. Maybe its just the fact that, I’m not home as much as I am these days, I miss home. I just want to be in it all the time. Though I’m definitely going out to spend time with my bestie Kamilla. Its been ages it seems since we hang out, I miss her a lot. I feel like, its time for me to do something with my hair since allowance dah masuk. HEHE~!



To conclude, holiday or not, I’ll definitely layan Super Junior in full throttle. Guilty as charge, I’m an addict to kpop now. Certain groups anyway. I’m very biased, SM biased more like it. XP Not that anyone cares but here’s my top 3 boy bands:



1. SSSUUPPERRR JJUUNNIIOOORRR *as yelled by Hee Chul in Don’t Don*
2. SAY B-I-G-TO-THA-BANG~! *BIG BANG~! I just heart GD’s smile, melts me all the time…*
3. 2 PM~! *Heck, I think its safe to say that Again & Again is my dad’s fav kpop song, or at least I think it is.* XP



I literally showed my dad the dance moves to most of the kpop songs I’m listening to, while driving in the car. Seriously!!! I showed my dad ‘Sorry Sorry’, ‘Again & Again’, ‘Lies’ and even ‘Super Girl’~!!! LOLZ, good times. I think my dad laughed the hardest when I did the dance moves to ‘Again & Again’.


I think that’s all for today. I’m thoroughly tired. The only thing productive thing I did throughout the day is watching Titanic though. The ending gets me all the time. It definitely made me realize before there was Edward & Bella, there was Jack & Rose.




Fighting~!