I FEEL EXTREMELY BLESSED THESE DAYS

There were days that I feel like I am the most unfortunate and unhappy girl in the world. I mean, I look at my friends around me and I can't help but to compare. I feel like I am lacking in every department, and it sucks. But being the muslim that I am, I look at it as god testing my faith. In fact, I try to be as optimistic as possible. Like, at least my state of living is much better then the other girls who are my age in countries like Darfur, Afghanistan and so much more. 

I must admit, shows like The Oprah Winfrey Show really bring me down to my feet every time I feel like the unluckiest girl in the world. At least:

1. I have delicious food to eat 3 times a day

2. I get a decent education and will go to college soon.

3. I live in a democratic country

4. and so much more...

To me, if those grim days weren't so 'low'... Then the high days won't be so 'high'... 

Like, the day my dad told me that I am too young to own an Apple Macbook plus it might get stolen in the campus so he ordered some Toshiba laptop instead, that was a low day. I know, I know. You guys won't look at it as that big of a deal, but it is to me! I mean, since the start of the year I have made it clear to my dad about my desire to own a Macbook. And yet he had to order some Toshiba laptop, without even talking to me in the first place.

Then again, like The Academy Is said, the world tends to unfold the way it should. What do you know, I own a macbook now. I mean, its a miracle!!! I count my blessings every single day, I am more then sure that my prayers are being answered. Now to add another one to my blessing list, I am accepted to UIAM!!! How exciting!!! Except for the fact that I have to wear tudung, wear baju kurung (which I have no problem with) and not tight body hugging clothing and learning bahasa Arab. Then again, learning bahasa Arab should be fun. I will only be learning the basics, plus its hard to pronounce. Almost like french... Almost...

My course is for asasi kejuruteraan. Like foundation, for a year. Then a degree!!! I decided to take engineering because there are more options later on and it looks very interesting. Plus I have done my research on the job prospects and its looking good. I just have to learn to stand out then all the other graduates. In fact, I already set my sight on who will my future employer be. I am talking about the company Arcelor Mittal!!! Right now I am considering to be a chemical engineer who specializes in metallurgy. It sounds interesting, and hard. Then again, nothing is easy in the world. And I am going to work hard to achieve this.

I am seriously considering to sacrifice my social life if it will increase my chances to get a higher grade pointer at the end of the semester. Like, during high school years of form 4 and form 5, my goal was to never fail a single subject out of the 10 subjects. And I did it, although I nearly failed it when during my trial SPM I scored like 30+ for my physics paper. My my, wasn't that a wake up call for me. Honestly, I never took SPM seriously. Not even a week before the first paper. It was the last weekend before SPM that made the whole thing finally sink in into my conscious. This is it... 

Now, my goal for my college year is to score 3.5 and above!!! Who am I kidding... LOLZ!  It sounds so much easier in The Sims 2 University. So maybe, my goal is to score 3.0 and above. But during my final year, it will be 3.5 and above. Even better, if I can get 4 flat! My uncle said 1200 students in Malaysia did it this year alone, well so can I... If they can do it, why can't I? My brain capacity is the same as theirs, I guess it all goes down to hard work. And I will strive for that. My parents have invested so much in me I cannot imagine letting them down.

Fueled by Atiqah...

Atiqah's name drop of the day: The people who created The Sims!

Atiqah's song of the day: New Soul by Yael Naim